certain things in life make it what it is

hows it going for you? i hope your answer was an upbeat good one. leave a comment to answer that question if you would like.
ok today was cool. i woke up around 10 cause bobby called me and we decided that we would chill. we did. he came over to my house around 11 or 12. poor kid got to meet my family. yeah we were going to watch a movie upstairs but erin overtook the tv even though i told her that i get it once he got to our house. whatever. she is kinda mean that way. anyways he came over and we hung out in my room listening to some awesome ragtime jazz, and some swing music on my new record player. we got his sketch pad out of his trunk and started drawing. me i was more so just sitting there with a pencil in my hand while he was sketchin something cool.
then at two i got the opportunity to go to work. horray for me. i thought that is what you were thinking. it was all fine and dandy. i was tired and a little slow on my work but whatever.
oh yeah yesterday i hung out with who? bobby again yeah. cool kid. we went to lifetime fitness to "workout" yeah it was cool his sister and drew and another guy were there. we mostly hung out in the hottub with his sister and then the pool. he dunked me a few times. not cool! then he drove me home and that was it. what a life i have. i need to go to bed. later

Christmas

Christmas with the relatives. What can I say. I bummed a ride home early with my brother. Then he had drive me from his apartment to my family's house. Poor kid had to drive a lot today. We had some prety good conversation though in the car on the way home. His girlfriend fell asleep in the back seet. We talked about church, school, college, and a lot of other things.
Then when I got home I walked outside with the dog and made sure she went to the bathroom. Then I went over to Bobby's again. He is a fun one to hang out with. There was a group of us there. We watched a movie then sat around in his room. cool huh? yep, for sure.
Today I was woken by Jason. He is quite a funny, cool kid. Yeah. I then got out of bed and went to Northtown, the mall area, and went to some thrift stores and a book/record store. I was looking for some good jazz, swing, and so on. . . records. I found some good ones which is cool. Oh, I recieved a record player for Christmas from my folks. I have wanted one for a long time so it was awesome to get one. I'm very thankful for it. I will use it to its fullest extent. I hope you all had a fun or at least interesting Christmas. I'm off to go clean off one of the walls in the kitchen so that my father can paint it while still on break. Later! I'm rockin out now, heck yeah.

Agnostic

Agnostic: to believe no one can know for certain that there is a god.

It's one thing when it's a person off the street. Another when it's your brother.

one memory to add to the others

Today was prety awesome. i woke up, i dont even rememeber when. i think around 10. jeremy called me and i told him i would call him back when i was actually ready to get up for the day. like always, i couldnt fall back to sleep. so i ended up getting up and took a shower then played game cube then super nintendo. that was all cool. sometime while i was doing that i called bobby and he said he was at a buisness meeting but we could get together later in the day. so that is how it went he ended up calling me back later and i drove over to his house and hung out.
we talked to tracy, his sister who is a year younger than me and a cool girl, for a while. its kinda funny to see how different siblings treat eachother. then bobby asked me what i wanted to do and like always i cant make a decision, i hate that i am that way! we then went to calebs house. his parents, g-ma, and drew were frosting christmas cookies. funny to watch. they made some prety oddly decorated cookies. after that we went with drew to northtown mall for his last few presents. drew is not one to shop with. it took him forever to decide what he wanted to get and then he would forget it. we tried to keep him in line. then we went back to bobby's house and hung out. sat in his room watched office space, then talked, then played sega, then talked some more laughed, had some good words. he is a really cool guy. i wish that i would have go to know him before he graduated. yeah anyways its late, 1:11, crazy. i better get to bed. i have to work tomarrow. yeah that is sad that i have to work christmas eve and christmas. i get double time though so im fine. k enjoy your sleepy time. adios

only one day left till break

awesome, one day left until christmas break. im quite excited. today janelle and i turned in our rebuilding of the temple which we did on the computer. it turned out really awesome. she is a great partner.
oh and i worked last night, it was prety ok.
today i went in to farmstead like always and did some things for cheryl. on my way out i asked the receptionist if they had gotten my application and she said yes and that they were checking them out and would have interviews soon here. i pray that they call me. that would be quite awesome!
in yearbook we started to watch the count of montecriso (cant spell sorry) yeah its good so far i sat on one of the tables and then i ended up laying on it and almost fell asleep. we had the movie hooked up to a power point and all the lights off. i felt like i was at a mini theatre. indeed it was cool.
alright well im ganna go read some of my friends poetry and then hopefully clean my disorganized room. i have college applications and scholarship stuff and clothes all over my floor. not cool. i like being clean. oh well, not much i can do time is an issue. rock on and enjoy your night.

homecoming

yeah today was the day of homecoming for meadow creek christian school. it was really rockin. i think this week i have become a little more open to the kids at my school. im, for now, feeling comfortable with where im at. oh for mccs homecoming is at this time of the year because we do not have a football team. actually homecoming is normally after christmas break.
at the game today we played against the something or other stars and we won both girls and boys. girls by like 60 some to 20 some. or something like that. the guys was a little closer. we only won by like 5 points. oh i had to play for pep band and i took pictures for yearbook. both fun to do but yep. i hope the action shots that i took turn out well. oh wowzers i just got home about ten minutes ago at 2:10am. im suprised i didnt get in trouble. after the games i went out with some of the kids who graduated last year, the alumni, the ones i hung out with. they are so awesome. yeah we went to applebee's. good fun. i wasnt hungry though. i sat next to bobby. what a cool kid. while we were still waiting for a seat i was talking to him and he told me im trying to hard and that im making him think. i thought about it a bit and i was. i was trying to make myself sound all intelligent and funny. no it worked better when i started to lay back and just be me. yeah so him and i talked a bit and then after applebee's we went to Caleb Mill's house. Mrs. Mill's son. funny i guess it was his "suprise b-day party". well a little late. anyways it was fun. i talked to Mitchel and Craig, Ashlyn, and some other awesome kids. it was fun i ended up laying on the floor in the living room by bobby and mitchel was in the chair by us and we had a good chat. enjoyably fun day. one i hope to remember. im off to bed, im tired, it is late ya know.

dating

ok what do you think about dating. so i was talking to one of my friends about it and i guess truthfully i havent thought about it for a while. i havent had to. a while back i prayed to God that he would take the crushes and "fake" feelings away from me. and he listened to me and did.
so i was again thinking about it and remembered about a few years ago while i was still young and somewhere in junior high or a freshman i decided to "date God" i am not going to date until after i graduate from high school. it is a promise i made to myself and God. i have kept my word, even if i have liked a guy i havent let it overcome my promise to God. I'm not going to break it. I dont like making promises if i am not going to be able to keep it. so that is why i dont normally promise anything.
i was then reminded of what i look for in a guy. (this i looked at i wrote it 3-4 years ago and i still feel the same way)
to have integrity and ambitions, love God and be seeking a relationship with Him, be respectful and responsible, to have a urning for Christ, love my family and friends, show the fruit of the spirit, have the same understanding as me and the same morals, we need to be able to lift eachother up, to be able to talk about anything with eachother, not keep anything hidden, trustworthy, dependable, and it would be cool if he was cute but looks dont matter.
what i am not going to compromise, GOD!, my goals and ambitions, my family, my friends, a life, my dreams, my daily walk with God, and I'm not going to compromise myself.
there ya go, its just a bit of what i felt like sharing, maybe i will share some more later, i have to finish my homework of Macbeth for english and go to bed, i have to work tomarrow night so i need to get sleep tonight. alright tell me what you think about dating and what i said if you would like, i would love to hear what you have to say. : -) enjoy your night!

friend

today is sunday. wowzers. at church this morning was the childrens christmas program. kinda funny. not as long as norma. i wansnt a part of it which was nice.
i worked today from 2-8. im looking forward to the next pay check. yeah im still not feeling the best. but i still went to work. i talked to dena for a few hours which was not exactly nice but was good in a way. we always get in some kinda quarrel and so on. we ended off a good note though. she was my best friend for quite a number of years. i think her going off to college and me going to mccs mad a difference in our relationship.
alrigh im off to do my bible homework. ;)

Mall of America

alrighty, sorry i didnt write yesterday i had to work and then i went to bed cause i dont feel too well. anyways yesterday for jazz band we left after first hour and went to mall of america and played our christmas music on a stage. it was cool. i wasnt feelin so hot though so it wasnt as fun as it could have been. during "still, still, still" which is our slower song i started coughing. that wasnt cool. on the way home i fell asleep on the bus. oh yeah, ben was prety pimpin yesterday. thats what he said anyways. he thought his hat and his choir "uniform" together and brown shoes was prety pimpin. whatever. funny kid. ok i gatta go. i have to work at 2 so i think im ganna take a shower than work on the bible project, a small rebuilding of Solomon’s temple. Janelle is my partner which means it is going to be rockin and that we are going to do a good job and get it done on time. im not a huge fan of having partners because then i have to worry about how they want it and it can take more time. oh well. it will be fun. enjoy your day.

last Christmas band concert of high school

alrighty well today was all fine and dandy. school was ok. after school i went and volunteered like every thursday. cheryl, the activities director, told me that they are looking for a receptionist to work from 2:30-4:30 every weekday. that would be awesome. so i am applying and if its God's will i will get the job otherwise i will stay at holiday. anyways on to the good stuff.
tonight we, meaning the high school, had our Christmas band/choir concert. we started out bad cause the trumpets kinda messed up a bit. as the night went on we got a little better. and it was going all fine and stuff. then when the band was about to play after the choir. mr. R didn't come up. on the screen came up a part from, Rudolph the red nose reindeer. with the abominable snow man. mr. m started reading a story that was made up about our practice charts and so on and how it made the abominable snow man. and such and such. anyways I'm not makin much sense here so this is what i wanted to come out with. mr. rudzitis came out dressed like the abominable snowman. he looked more like an white gorilla. we then played our next two songs with him dressed like that. indeed mccs is a crazy school. i looked over at ben and we just totally agreed. we are ganna talk about it later. then i look over at his bro Nathaniel, who i am tight with too, and we just shook our heads in disbelief. yep.
after the concert i hung around with Nathaniel talked to a few people. i showed Nathaniel the senior table which now has Christmas lights all around it hanging from the ceiling.

chemistry

woohoo! the test is now over! i am so happy. thanks to micah and a select few i am understanding it to a certain extent. which i am happy about. oh i didnt pull the alnighter that i had thought i would do last night. i ended up staying up till midnight. i read the ch. about 3 or 4 times and did some of the ch. pack and couldnt stay up anylonger. the energy drink did no good.
i wish the sun would come out from behind the clouds. that would be all nice and dandy.
oh today in chapel the bands played and the choir sung. i dont think we did the greatest. we got to concert band 4th hour and mr. r got on our tails about some things that we did horridly wrong. other than that the day was prety ok. nothing much else to say. :) chow!

colorful soul

Near the billowing oaks
Growing on the grassy hilltops
On the ground soundless
Lay a soul gazing upward
Towards the blue sky the eyes reached out
The mind longed to hold the color
Overhead the sunlight began to fade
The horizon grew to a striking hue
The heart began to beat faster
Racing to catch the sunset
Colors bled from high above

The black night sky captured the souls dream of color

everybody was kung foo fighting

hey man waz up slice? not too much here. just got home from school which if i do say so myself isnt that cool. yeah i see micah made a blog. that is awesome. blogs are cool. i have some homework to do so maybe i will come on later and write something interesting. oh well enjoy.

off my rocker

yeah im tired. i woke up today and yesterday at 5:45 to get ready for work at 6. crazy. i think im ganna take a nap. hey i went to see alexander with my friend jeremy yesterday. not a bad movie. i didnt like a few of the scenes. i saw a little too much. its fun to chill with jeremy, i dont know what he thinks though. im kinda a boring kid. oh well nothing i can do about it.
yesterday while i was at work my family was at my grandparents house. i was told i didnt miss much. yeah its kinda sad i havent been to one of those functions for a year or so. when i see them next time they will be all like "oh my carrie, how you've grown" and then i will think "yeah outward, i am getting prety fat." Nah, im just kiddin but yeah.
ok so i find it prety rockin that whenever i come online jon is on and we always chat. funny kid. its sad he is oh so far away at rocky mountain college. oh that reminds me i put in an application to the Black Hills State University. i have always liked it there. and jon was telling me not to worry about how other people want my life to go and how i think about pleasing others too much. he said i should just think of how i want it. which is kinda bad but i guess it is true, this is my future we are talkin about. so yep. oh yeah, he called me the other day. i was quite supprised and nocked off my rocker. i didnt expect him to call. we talked for a few hours and it was quite enjoyable. he is one that if i dont talk to him for a while and then we talk its like the friendship just takes back up we didnt miss anything. i suppose thats what best friends are for. awesome!

english term paper

Yippi! thank you Jesus! i am almost done with my paper. i didnt get as many words as i was supposed to but getting done is done. yippi skippi! and tomarrow is friday which also rocks!

it's only wednesday

oh wowzers, it's only wednesday. yeah i finished the poster thing for Bible last night. it took me from after school till about 11. i didnt get to bed till midnight.
since it is wednesday we had chapel at school and that was awesome. mrs. winkes was the one speaking to us today. she did an awesome job. she talked about how everyone has value and she had that go along with a story about herself when she was in highschool. quite awesome. anyways rock on and have a grand evening.

one way or another

well waking up today meant that thanksgiving break was over. another day of school. it wasnt too bad. i volunteered during 5th hour and lunch again today. i ended up helping put some christmas decorations up. i put light on a tree for the first time ever. yeah, there is always a first time for everything. so there is my normal day. not too interesting, yet not a bad one.

saikano, great manga! 

yep, its me again

Some days start out abysmal and end up congenial. yeah, i worked last night, went home, stayed up late, hung out with Herman, and went to bed. I woke up at noon, looked out the window and wanted to fall back asleep again till spring came. Maybe I could go into hibernation or something. it snowed prety much all day.
i worked on a paper that is due tuesday which wasnt cool at all, interesting topic but not fun to try and put it all together. then tonight i was going to go to the Children 18:3 concert up in Duluth but ended up not going cause i couldnt find anyone to go with and then the snow and slippery roads and so on. i ended up chillin with Jeremy. he's a cool guy. i never know what to say. i know what i want to say but i can never put it into the right wording so i just keep my mouth closed. its probably better that way. he's fun to hang with. anyways, i think im ganna work some more on the revolting paper. rock on! have a good night.

To Show

Beneath the clouds so deep and murky
Lies a person so alone and deserted
The world around so bleak and gloomy

The heart became maroon and shattered

my life as you know it

"i dont know what to say except to ask the question of. . . why one minute is life so overflowingly good, then the next something rips it all that out of you? i hate depression. i hope that it goes away. i hate struggling with it. life is so up and down. nothing ever satisfies you. life has no real hapiness to it. i dont understand why God allows peaple to struggle. i guess we are human kind. but God havent i gone through enough in life already? does God have tears? does he ever cry?
could i say life hurts and i just want to leave home and never come back. start new.
why doesnt anything ever last?" -Carrie's thoughts for the night-
here is some more. . . . "why cant a person if they like another just straight out say it. it makes it so much nicer. i am such a hypocrite. i am horrible at saying what i am feeling. and why do i, as a girl, have to be so emotional?"

my first college acceptance letter

rockin! i got my first college acceptance letter today from Dordt College in Iowa. that was cool. encouraging to know there is at least one college out there that would accept me. yeah, i dont know if i want to go there but im ganna have to pray about it. anyways life is going well. a little fast but still good. we got this new kid at work. he seems like he's cool. maybe he will make working there more fun. i have a chemestry test tomarrow that i feel like not even studying for. i want to drop the class. i shouldnt though if i want to be a nurse. then again do i still want to be a nurse? i dont know. i think being a photographer and doing things like we are doing for yearbook like the layout and everything else totally grabs my attention. maybe i will think outside the box. i dont know we will see. whatever anyways. tata for now slice.

ACT score

i just got my ACT score finally. wow so i did a lot better than i thought i would first of all i wasnt even going to take it because i will probably go to a community college next fall and i didnt have to take it to get in but i did anyways. my goal was to get an 18, i dont feel that i am the smartest bulb in the bunch and i didnt study much because, i really dont know why. but anyways i got a 21. God has totally blessed me. ok so you may be thinking that that score isnt that good but to me, it is. im horrid at tests and i have gone through some hard things with my brain be cut out of. but like i said it is so encouraging to have God help me in every aspect of my life. im encouraged. God bless you on this rainy dreary day.

friday, the 1st dedline for yearbook = stress

ok. so here ya go, i just got home from school at 7:30 and im not in any sports. life is crazy. so i went to school, had an enjoyably boring time sitting in class. after school i worked on yearbook untill 3 then went to farmstead, volunteered for an hour and then went back to school and work on yearbook untill 7:30. crazy. ok so i made it sound worse than it is but still the deadline is tomarrow and we need to still get a bunch of things done. i actually am enjoying this class cause its making me get to know the kids i go to school with. alright well im tired and my brain has no more function left so sleep tight and enjoy the night.

fog

today has been foggy. since i woke to now when i am about to lay my head down on my soft pillow. to see the sun is only a small memory. how depressing it is not to get the vitamin D deserved for the day.
Im getting there with nights school. i have probably like 10-15 hours left to serve before i get that done with. oh and the yearbooks first deadline is this friday. way too soon after the computer crashed and what not. im a bit stressed. my mind cant keep on one topic. sometimes i wish life would slow down so i could enjoy it and maybe have some time to make real friends, not just the ones you say hi to at school, but the ones you know inside and out.
im in the mood to listen to Brave St. Saturn or Lifehouse. some slower stuff to to along with the down mood of the day. in fact im ganna go listen to that right now. peace out dude!

here you go then. one of my drawings. yeah, sorry i cant draw faces. i decided that no face is now my signature.
 

Mystifying day

today was all fine and dandy. nothing really good, nothing really bad happened. it is all misty out. so i decided it was quite the mystifying day. the only thing interesting that happened today was that one of the art teacher at school saw my sketch book when i brought it in to show one of my sisters friends cause she wanted to see it. the teacher said if i keep working at it i could get better and thanked me for allowing her to see. of coarse my face turned all red and i got all embarraced cause i dont think any of my drawings are that good. maybe i will put one on my blog later today.
ok and now i have decided that never am i going to get a boyfriend cause thats not cool and i would be horrible in a relationship. friendships are great but not when i have a crush on the kid, i always mess something up.

to feel alone, lain 

cool pic 

oh the joy of learning

yeah today at school. always interesting when you go to a small private school with crazy teachers and even more crazy students. today for the sophmores was the "battle". last year was the first year. they make their own armor out of cardboard and alluminum foil. then during eigth hour, the last hour of our school day, they battle. the battle it to "learn" how it was for the Pursian and Asine warriors (dont know how to spell that sorry) so the fight begins out front by the pond where everyone driving past on Bunker lake Blvd. can see how crazy the school i go to is. they then run toward eachother with swords and all until either the hour ends or one "wins" by "killing" one another. i guess the rule is once you fall you are then called dead. what an odd learning style.
to add to the fun my chemestry class was allowed to go and sit outside and watch them for a while. a kid named aaron in my grade and a few other kids from my senior class brought out a large sign saying "stop the bombing". not just that but aaron had his guitar with him.
oh something good though is i got to check out my quarter grade in chemestry and im getting a c. that isnt too bad seeing as how horrid i have done on the tests. be proud, its an honors class.
oh man, im in the mood for bob marley music. sounds quite appealing at the moment.

why always good news first

alrighty, good news folks. the year book computer crashed but mr. ferret saved the files on a disk. now the computer has been attempted to fix and the programs reprogramed onto there. we are now hopefuly up and running for business and can get our pages in hopefuly near the first deadline. God is so awesome and keeps us on the edge of our seats sometimes.

new vacuum

ok. my family got a new vacuum today. now my mother, since we got home at least two hours ago, has been vacuuming. yeah thats insain. then she shows us, meaning my sister and me, all the junk that it has picked up. another stupid thing is my sister vacuumed this morning with the old one. alright, there is now proof that my family is insain.

something interesting

alrighty well today i didnt have school because of the end of the quarter. i went into school anyways because of the yearbook problem. still not working. that isnt cool at all. after we figured out there is nothing we could do until monday for the computer problem i went off to the bank at put my checks into my account. while driving home i called my bro and he wasnt home, added more minutes to my cell phone, and then half way ballanced my check book while still driving. yeah wow, arent i cool. j/k. anyways so then when i got home i hung out with my oh so cool sister and began to clean the computer room, waited around, cut her hair. then at about 3 i called my awesome friend mike to see if he wanted to hang out. he was sick and had to work tonight so that was off my checklist of things i might do. then i remembered while i was downloading a cd onto my computer that i needed to call nathaniel to see if he wanted to come with me next weekend to "that 70s variety show" that my schools drama team is putting on. no, sorry im not in drama this year, i stink. so anyways he might go with me. that was cool to hear. we ended up talking for about a half and hour to an hour which is really cool. i dont see hime too much besides when he picks up his brother from school. (he used to go to meadow creek and then went to st. francis where i was and we became cool friends then after my freshman year i changed to meadow creek and he still goes to st. franny. his little brother goes to mc, him and i have a class together) anyways it was just cool that we could talk that long. we dont talk to often. i like that we can go back as if we were never apart. it is also so awesome that we always end up on the topic of God and how he is working in our lifes. alrighty well, my sister and i are going to now go rent a movie and become bums for the night.

the memory

to have a memory of a place

not dressed in satin or in lace

can be the most precious of them all

and still be quite small

silence in her heart

Upon the soft earth

Unspoken she sat

Tears softly streamed

Under the shaddow of her cream hat

People walked calously around

As if she didn't exist

Having once loved

Her heart could no longer resist

sometimes i forget

you ever have a friend that you think oh so highly of. i do. i think i love this person so much and that life would be so weird without them but when it all comes down to it. is the friendship that important. what is agape love? through the last few years i have grown apart from a lot of diff.friends because of the whole switching schools thing and stuff. did that actually hurt or is my mind just making it up. do these friends even care if they "lost" me and werent able to be with me anymore. could one day of not talking to them add up to a lifetime of seperation? the memories of our friendship tug on my heart and are breaking it in half. do i really matter to anyone. why cant friends tell eachother they love them without being sarcastic. why cant my best friend share more emotion and deeper detail about life. why do i feel like i have to carry the friendships that no one cares enough to attempt to keep them together. how come i am so afraid to make a friendship? i have lost all them or we have grown apart. is that why im afraid to have a boyfriend? am i too afraid to lose him too? even one of my best friends who said we would never grow apart even in times like this, has now gone down her own way leaving me in the dust. did i ever actually truly mean anything to her. when someone says i love you do they mean it? why do i have to be thinking about this? am i that pathetic?

Yearbook

so wowzers, what a day. one of my favorite classes as you probably know by now is yearbook. the first due date is this comming thursday. the stress has piled on. today during fifth hour i was working on some of the pages i am a part of and all the sudden the computer froze, shut down, and started back up again. well not thinking that much, i just left cause the bell for me to go to lunch had just rang. well i get back into homeroom to take the weekly bible verse and mrs. happ told me that elite vission (the program that we make our pages on) isnt working. it just isnt comming up. CRAZY! yeah so now what? we prayed a bajillion times and tried to find the folder and saved it and stuff then mr. ferret is now reloading the program and i'm guessing we are going to have to start from scratch. yeah at least we still have all the pics and what not in the file cabinet. so i pray to God that it will turn out all fine and dandy.
ok then yesterday, i go to a night class every wednesday to get my history credit at an alternative learning center. anyways the teacher dude gives us packets to work on for an hour and then we leave and go home. anyways he is always on the computer while we are doing the packets. yesterday i sat in a spot where i could see what he was looking at and typing and suff. anyways he has a blog on this bloggerbot.com. i had to chuckle a little at that. talk to you later, im off to work.

i got my cd!

wowzers, i got the cd in that i ordered the other day in the mail today. yeah i got headnoise. its a punk band prety rockin is all i can say.
i have been taking some picture for yearbook a lot lately and they got developed and they are not bad at all. im proud of myself. now if only i could be a photographer that would be even cooler. anyways, some day i will put one of the pics on my blog. alrighty God is awesome! talk to you later

God is so awesome!

This morning I went to church like always. God was there and He was so awesome and is so awesome I could never explain in full how I feel when I am in His presence. I had to work today from 2-10 and I have been prety hard on work and not liking it at all. Anyways, God must have put me there for a reason because first of all when I went to aply there I came with a Super America application (they forgave me and then I went into the back room to fill out the electronic application). So even though I dont want to admit it, it must be God's will for me to be here. Anyways, on with my story. Today I worked with Jon and another girl, she is cool and all. I was put on register one because Racheal was leaving at 8. So I was standing there taking liceanse plates down when out of the blue Jon asked me where I go to church. Wowzers! That totally caught me off guard. So we talked off and on about church and stuff. Him and I both dont like Holiday, no one uplifts eachother and so on. . . he put in his final notice, working two more weeks and then gone. I know at the beginning I didnt like him but as I work here more I have liked him better and better. Another thing that happened my friend Jake from MCCS came walking past the register, said hey Carrie, and then walked out. Why could he not have stayed and talked more, come on dude, he is an awesome kid and I dont see him anymore cause now he goes to Anoka Ramsey Tech.
Then along the day went and i got on break and cause I had my Bible I read some from Joshua and I started to pray and I prayed that if its God's will he would make me stay and if not he would allow me to get hired by Farmstead (where i volunteer). So then my break was over. A little bit after that one of the guys that comes in off and on came in and payed for fuel and what not. He asked me, "So did you quit for a while? You havent been around." and I said, "No I only work a few days a week because of school. " and he asked me a little about school, and then I said that I also dont work Sunday mornings anymore because of church. That got us on the subject about him going to a church now for a bit and where him and i go and what not. it was just cool how God can put one word into my mouth and it can change around something totally. ok so then Allan the night manager at Holiday comes in and he was on vacation for a few weeks. I guess he went to china. I learned tonight that he works with an underground church there and an atoption agency here in St. Paul. that just caught me by suprise and i learned a little bit more about him. its just cool to know there is another christian there with me at work even though we are never there at the same time, its still cool! I hope God shows you something in your life. and i hope he just lights the fire within you that can never stop burning! God bless I have to get to bed, talk to you later.

so i thought 

alright so Herman isnt as good as I thought he was  

state soccer tournament

Today my school only had a half day because or girls soccer team made it to state. That ruled. But, being me a nerd as I am I had to go to the game even though I'm not a sports fan. I'm in pep-band. this year our pep-band has to wear meadow creek band shirts. they are quite cheezy indeed. The game was cool and all and they played overtime loosing 1 to 2 prety close game. I dont like sports cause im way too competative! it was hard to watch. I hung out with a few of my friends. I talked to Craig about Anoka Ramsey Community College and he said he doesnt like it so that makes me rethink if i want to go there next year or not. I talked to Jon for a few minutes on MSN after I got home. It always makes me sad when we dont have much to say to eachother. He means the world to me he is my closest friend and I dont ever want to let him down. maybe i try too hard. or maybe not hard enough. anyways i wont ramble on and on about what i feel. i better go, i need to study for a chemistry test and Old Testiment survey test. Have an awesome afternoon and well. . . i guess night! love ya.

volunteering

okidoki, every thursday for more than a year i have been volunteering at a place called farmstead which is an assisted living place for older people. every thursday i play games mostly uno or dominoes and then the second to the last thursday of every month is a birthday party bash for people living theres b-day. ok so every once in a while a guy named joe who works in the kitchen comes in and plays the games with us for a little bit and then goes back to work or he talks to me and stuff. anyways today i started volunteering on mondays during my 5th hour free period so i first of all went to big bite pizza to show the manager there, joe, the add that i had designed for him to put in the yearbook. i got some very tasty breadsticks there too. and talked for a few minutes to my brothers girlfriend rachel, she is awesome. anyways so i got to farmstead and joe was sitting there in the little book/ fireplace area and so i stopped said hi to him and gave him a breadstick. then i went helped cheryl out for a bit and went back out there and joe was still there. he was playin on his cell phone. anyways i sat down for a little while and he asked me about some stuff and then asked me if i had a boyfriend and i said no. its me, who would like me, i dont know. then we talked about college and so on. . . he then asked me for my phone number. now remember this is a christian assisted living place. it humored me a little and i do have to say flattered me too ya know its me. anyways there is my interesting story for the day. have a grand ball of a night, i have to go work on a paper now. talk to you later.

ACTs

why oh why in the world do they make us kids take this stupid test. I think it is a horrible way to say how smart a kid is. I dont believe in crap like this. Remember in elementary school when we had to take the Iowa Basics oh my gosh. Anyways so I'm studying for this test. Not doing too well studying either. I decided I am going to do horrid. Anyways. . . I'm done complaining for the day. Enjoy the cold October weather.

Fall

Within the wind with a whistling sound
Falls a brittle leaf onto the waterless ground
Blowing in the brisk breeze

The bright colors do swiftly leave

here you go, you get to know me better every day! 

sales people

oh man, so i just got a call from a sales person about a credit card. how stupid. they try way too hard to get me to get into the plan. alrighty im done now.

yeah! God is awesome!

hey, the other day i left a not for my boss saying that i couldnt work sunday mornings because "God goes before money" and that i could only work two days a week because it was too much with school and all. anyways i got a call yesterday from angely, one of the assistent managers. she told me that tony read my letter and that they are not going to schedule me sunday mornings! praise God! he is so awesome and answers prayers. also they are going to schedule me only two days a week one they hire another person! oh man that takes a load off my shoulders.
alright on with another story. i showed my poetry to my english teacher today. im a little uptight about my poetry cause its not that good and stuff. anyways there is this competion that i entered one of my poems into. oh man. i hope they at least give a thought into my poem, it would be soooo cool if they put me even in 3rd place. i would be flabergasted. alrighty well im talking to jonny-boy now. keeping him from writing a paper for class. i better get going i need to get some sleep sometime. rock on and stay kool!

work sucks

ok so today i had to again wake up and get to work by 6. how insane! anyways so today was crazy. where do all those people come from? on my gosh and then i forgot to ring in &62 dollars worth of winning lottery from the night before so my drawer ended up being totally off im such an idiot. either that or the job is just stupid. i agree with the second statement more so. so alright. i am now looking for a new job. im hoping and praying that God will get me a job at borders books cause that would be oh so much better than a gas station. anyways, tonight we are having the church over for a bonfire at my house so i have to get my room cleaned and stuff. im a bit worn out though. oh well nothing i can do about it anyways. have a great afternoon

practicing the tenor

yeah, i do have to say. music is quite cool when you think about it. jazz rocks! im foolin around with the piano, tenor, and bass clarinet and was just thinkin how rockin it is. just hought i would share. music is so much cooler than sports i do have to say. :)

i could have told you a long time ago im a tree hugger 

this is another pic.its cool too. this is a place where i sit and read or just think too. prety comfy log if i do say so myself 

this is one of my senior photos, one of my favorites. it portrays me prety well. that is the place i read in my back yard all the time 

When a Day Starts Out Good!

Okay, yesterday was senior skip day. for our school, we as a class go and get a class picture taken. this year we got it taken at mall of america by lego land. it rocked! i went on some rides then hung out with my cool friends.
Today was a really awesome day also. it is always good when a day starts out good! so erin and i were drivin to school and we were stopped at a stop light and i look over at the truck next to us and my friend luke from st. francis is waving at me. that was just cool cause i dont see him too much and when i do, it is always at the weirdest timings. prety cool. then ya know i actually got to school on time now and when you hear this your like "wowzers carrie im inpressed!". i know, i know. So anyways. on with my story. since today is wednesday we had chapel after first hour and that rocked my socks off! God is sooo awesome. the worship team did a great job and it is cool to see all the talents like guitar and stuff. . .
so the rest of that day wasnt too cool until 8th hour (yeah its crazy, my school has 8 classes a day! ick!) during the nice 5 minute passing time before the hour we call 8th my friend ryan came up to me and showed me a picture of himself on some card. he asked me "what the heck, do you know what this is?" and i replyed, "umm. . . maybe if you stopped moving your hand i could see what you have kiddo." nah just kidding. that isnt what i said but it ended up to be a card that has your school photo on it and has info about if you become missing. the laughter then came out. it says and i quote, "What to do if your child is missing: 1) Immediately call local law enforcement 2) show this image to authorities 3) call the national center for missing & exploited children at 1-800-THE-LOST" indeed quite sad. i am collecting all my friends cards now. if they become missing. mei, oh well. j/k. then after school i talked to my good friend nathaniel who i dont get much of a chance to talk to. he was picking up his cool bro ben from school. anyways, the day was quite interesting for me. i dont know how cool my day was for you. thanks for reading this far though. chill out home slice!

this is a pic i took a while ago, just thought it was cool 

Alrighty Then

Yeah. . . school is prety cool. Depends on the day is what I say. Anyways yeah I'm liking a few of my classes better and better each day. My favorite is yearbook and jazz band. I like yearbook cause I think it would be awesome if I could be a photographer. Jazz band rocks cause I love jazz. I play tenor sax for it and its a little harder cause its different from the clarinet and I just picked it up about 6 months ago. Its all cool though. So yeah its raining today. I kinda like that though, playing in the rain is always fun. Once my friend Ben and I had a puddle hopping fight. That was the bomb diggidy dude. For sure. Have a grand ball!

to twinkie: is to rub a twinkie on another

"So yesterday my church's youth group spent the afternoon on my pastor's house boat over on the St. Croix River. It was a blast, the water was really cold and my friend Anthony jumped in and swam for a while. Also we twinkied this guy named Randy, I'm hoping to have pictures soon! (To Twinkie: To bite off the end of a Twinkie and rub white contents all over ones face) Also I got twinkied a little bit too, but that was payback for what I did to Randy. We also had a grape fight, which is when you throw grapes at eachother until an adult stops it. So that was very much fun.On the way home I rode in Randy's trunk because there wasn't any room. He blasted the music very loud and decided he'd race the other youth members who drove, and to take the corners really fast. It was scary but really fun. So there ya go, that's what I did yesterday. Oh and I also watched all three Star Wars yesterday morning. Star Wars RULES!" words stollen from Erin so I didnt have to tell the story myself.

me and the little sister i call erin 

Day of Wonders

Heck Yeah! Today, oh what an awesome day. So it starts out that my sister and I have to wake up early to go to see you at the pole. Well it was raining and there was a thunderstorm. We went anyways and being that it is a private school they had a flag in the gym and everyone was standing there praying instead of outside in the dangerous lightning. Also today is my sisters birthday so that's cool. To add to the already well started off day my school has chapel every Wednesday and so we went to chapel after first hour. I had to leave early because I was in a skit that we did for it. That was cool and went well. Here we go chapel started with the worship team doing a rockin job leading the songs then the skit then Rebecca K. went up and started a prayer and anyone in the room could pray. To let you know more in our chapel there is 7-12 grade students. I was so suprised when people just started praying one at a time and you can tell who the leaders of are in this school. God blessed it so much. After the prayers Nate went up and he is in my grade and he tought us to have a pure heart and stay away from the line of temptation. He makes a great teacher. Last of all he called up the people who want to ascend (become closer/go from the level you are at to a higher level) to God. It was awesome to see all of my peers go forward to pray. To know that God can be in our school and talked about and shared in every class without being persicuted is so amazing. We stayed up there and the teachers went around and prayed for every student. A few of the seniors and I went around and prayed for the younger kids. It is so crazy to think that I am now one of the leaders in this school. No matter how small it is. God touched everyone. To be used by Him, there is no explanation of how good I felt. The almighty Yeshua is amazing!

my birthday!

hey, today is my 18th birthday. I am getting so old! Yeah, today was a great day. I went to school like always and then at 11:00 I went out to lunch with my brother, I'm able to do that because our school has open campus for seniors. Him and I went to Fizolies, a fast food Italian resturant. Very good food. That kids named Joe rocks! The rest of the school day was cool too. I'm in yearbook 7th hour, that is the most rockinest class I have had yet at Meadow Creek.
Oh yeah yesterday I worked from 4-8 and there was the newest member of Holiday getting trained in. His name is Joe, we were talkin and he was born the day after me, in the same hospital, and has the same car as me. He found this quite interesting. Its all cool i suppose. I hope it made his first day on the job a little more interesting. alrighty, well off to do some more homework. . .

school

okay so i didnt write about the first day of school, but it was prety boring like all first days because of all the lectures about what is going to happen through the year and so on. it was crazy and i was half dead. erin and i had stayed up the night before and not gotten a wink of sleep, quite the story but dumb thing to do. than yesterday i was a little better but almost fell asleep in chapel. today, okay here we are now back on schedule. today was a great day. i got to start playing in jazz band and i hope mr. r lets me stay in it even though im not the greatest tenor sax player. i am in yearbook this year, that is going to be the greatest class. hopefully my favorite too. last of all i gave blood today! yeah! then i went to volunteer and i was a half and hour late because of drawin my blood, i didnt think it would take that long. but after i was done giving blood they give you snacks and stuff and this girl who is named britt in 5th grade at meadow creek came and talked to me and we really hit it off. i hope i see her in the hallways. i told her that someday she should volunteer too. i hope she does cause she seems like she would be good at it. anyways onto my homework now.

if you will just turn your head slighty to the right, a little more. ah, yes, you will find my sister 

oh dear, it's me again, at 1 in the morning 

Zzzzzzzz

hello friends. Today is good. I cant believe that tomarrow school starts. Thats crazy.
Yesterday was great. I went to church like always then went out to lunch with one of my bestest buds, Dena. She is such a sweet heart. That was quite enjoyable to finaly spend a little time with her. Oh and the other day I talked to Jon which was awesome. I have the some really awesome friends. Anyways after lunch with Dena I had to go straight to work. Work wasnt too bad last night because it was raining all night so not too many people came in. It was actually kinda boring because of that but oh well, I like that better than busy. Have a great afternoon.

another day in history

yeah so last night I stayed up late, I read until about 3 o'clock. yeah crazy me. so I than slept in until 12 which is always good but I had to be at work by 2. so i got up, took a shower, sat around and then went to work. work wasnt too bad today, ya know there are the good and the bads. but. . . okay this lady that has come in some other times when I'm there, a regular customer I guess you could say. she asked me while I was checking her out if I like art and I said I do but I'm not the best at it and I asked why she asked that and she told me that I should be a graphic designer. I didnt know why she told me this and I asked her is she was an art teacher or liked art and her friend said that I should listen to her, she has that kinda thing to tell someone what they should do and it is what they are supposed to do or whatever ya know that gift I guess. that is crazy. wow. and than a few of my friends came in and said hi and so on making the night better and better. it is just weird how the littlest things can make a huge differance. last of all my register came out well which is always a load off my shoulders. now I'm home. I think I am going to go outside and watch the stars for a while. God Bless! He is so awesome!

gas stations

yeah so I work at the Holiday gas station by my house. I used to think it wouldnt be to bad to work at a a gas station. yeah right. so I am all fine and dandy when I am doing the floor work, but it can be quite stressful when I am doing register. its labor day weekend and so everyone is getting their gas now to go up north for the weekend. crazy! I wont say anymore.
Oh yeah on my way home the moon was beautiful, it was an orange/red color just comming up over the horizon. God is so cool. than when I was driving up my long driveway a deer ran across about 10 feet ahead of my car. its not too cool when that happens. anyways there ya go

someday, I want to become a photographer 

We are all so super! Oh that is Moses in the middle.  

Hey Jon, remember this picture. We were quite the youngins.  

Heck Yeah!

Today, oh wow. It's like sooo interesting. Yeah I woke up around noon which rocked. I dont have anything to do besides going to work at 4 o'clock. I have a really bad feeling in my gut that something bad is going to happen at work or else I just really dont want to go. Either way it's not cool. Talk to you later, hope your day is better than mine.

another road to be less taken, but still worn if i am not mistaken

me and the sea 

Erin and the cool Molly-O 

Lain again 

lain 

Melancholy Day

So today, what a day. Like all summer days sleeping in is music to my ears. I didnt have much to do besides volunteer. That went well though. I didnt play uno or dominoes this time. We went upstairs in the loft and put labels on letters for a group of people that came in from I think it was the YMCA or something. It reminded me of a factory or something like in the 20's when they were making war machines. Hazel, one of my favorite people there, said she was done and then she would get another stack of letters to address. She said she was too tired to play Bingo tonight. That just isnt cool.
Other than volunteering I just hung out around home. My family and I live in the woods, 19 acrees of it and swamp. I have a few favorite places just to go hang out, read and stuff. There is a place where a tree fell down back hidden in the woods and I love sitting there in silence thinking and stuff. Just listening to the breeze and the crickets and so on.
Oh yeah I almost forgot, my sister is taking my senior pictures and we did some of that today. She told me that I should climb this tree, which would look awesome if I sat in it. But as I was climbing it (I like to climb trees) I slipped and had to hug it as I slid down. Erin got a picture of that and now I have scratches all up my arms. Very funny and enjoyable though.

check it out

hey, you should check this blog out. It's my sisters.
http://pleezdntfeedthemodels.blogspot.com/

Love Denied

Ever after do I find
You are always in my mind
So much have I made lost

I now have to pay that great cost

strewn about

The place where seated
Thoughts lay strewn in disarray
Reminiscences are imbedded into the ground

Their seeds than erupt into a bountiful bouquet

A Place

I do not want to remember
That dark and pale December
Showing snow upon the ground
Nothing else was around
Where my life had once played

My body was now laid

Of Love

Every midnight stroll,
Had its hurtful toll.
He had bought her heart with all the stars,
Knowing next that he would give her mars.
She understood she would have to say goodbye someday,

Which harmed her heart in an enormous way.

Just One Day

Today, what a day. I woke up late cause I have to use every hour of my last few days of summer to its fullest extent. Erin and I went to our school and talked to one of my teachers. He had given us homework over the summer to read some things off a websight and then do a short overview of it or something. Anyways the websight is not there or isnt workin so I talked to him about that. He said not to worry about it! Yeah!
While we were at the school my sister and I went to the playground out back and took some awesome pictures of me. I am taking my own senior pics. So that was grand and then we went to the library and took some more funny pics and checked out some books of course. Then we stopped and got some jones soda cause I had the jones for some jones. I then dropped Erin off at her friends house.
The rest of the afternoon I watched Lain which is an anime tv show that I am borrowing from my bro. Very cool indeed. Last of all I went to church with my family. God is good!

How Awesome Is Our God!

God is so awesome. I just look over my day and can see God's might and power in everything. To see what He has blessed me with I just become awe struck.

a sister intrigued 

Herman, the fat dude!

Herman

Herman is my big white dude,

He does ask for a lot of food.

I do indeed love him much,

But if he sat on my leg I would need a crutch.

He likes to keep my feet warm,

And does me no real great harm.

His purring is more like roaring,

But never worse than his snoring.

When push comes to shove,

He has nothing I could not love.

Night Fantasy

The forest nightly

So grim and gray

Trees so dark

Where only moss can stay

With Faeries' dust

Tales come abound

Only dreams can trust

That faeries are around

Hardees used to be fun