fooling

I had some fun with the camera. the bottom pic was when I was playing with the exposures. It has 3. the sidewalk was at the school in Sheridan that we did our prayer walk near. the one with the boys is (L-R) T-love, John, Cooper, and Seth laying on top of them. That pic was in the hotel in Sheridan during the CV spring retreat.

rain and recuperation

Sunday, the day of rest. Kinda true. I have a bit of homework that I need to get done though. some reading and start studying for the geology test this Friday, also get my info together for the group project on media due Wednesday. So I guess it's not too bad.

This week went by prety well. Not much too it though, like last. I went in to the dentist again for a follow up on my dry socket. He gave me this syringe to clean out the hole and whatever. Yes, it does still hurt. Not as bad as before but the pain is still there. I also went into the doc for my foot. She took another x-ray and said that I have to wear the boot for another 3 weeks. So I will get to stop wearing it after Easter break. Other than that, not much happened this week. I missed a few classes beacause of the oppointments, talked to my family more than I normally do when I am away at college.

Shana and I drove around on Friday night, I kind wanted to go to the ministery house but I had no way of getting there. Yesterday, Saturday, Jenny, Shana, and I rented Meet the Deedles and To Kill a Mockingbird. It is now officially tradition for me and Jenny to watch movies on the weekend for a break from studying. I like the idea quite well.

Now it is raining and it suites me well today. Just the right mood for rain. Also I would rather have rain than snow at this point. The green grass and leaves on the trees coming soon in the future excites me. Anyways, now its time to start the readings and so on. Keep it coming. . .

persecution of the church

In the caff, I was walking towards the table that Jenny and Shelli sat down at. I was the last one there, me, being the slow one i am lately. As I was heading toward the table the two were praying for their meal, like every time before they eat. In a table near I heard laughing and saw them point at our table and laugh about my friends praying. I sit down and think quickly over the situation. Should I be strong and pray or should I fall into the trap and decide not to pray. I prayed. In my heart I was a little afraid contemplating everything that I just saw happen.

I heard more laughter and taunting from the table. I dont think they knew I could hear them. Jenny and Shelli didnt notice (that I know of). Heartbroken because some peoples beliefs and attitudes about others, I sat there and pondered throughout the meal about what the smallest things in ones life can do to others. Like praying every day in the caffeteria before you begin to eat your meal. Who all sees your prayer to God?

another day gone by

This week has been the hardest of all weeks of my first year of college. Starting off by getting back to school dead as a door-nail because of the drive the night before. Having to say goodbye to my love again, know I wont be able to see him for quite a while. I am walking around on crutches that I have decided to give up because I was having a tuff time and building muscle I never knew I had. Also the pain of my wisdom teeth getting pulled out of the bone. And my jaw pops and I wouldnt have been suprised if people down the hall could have heard the loud pop.

Monday, I started out with bad weather and a test in sociology that I am quite afraid that I didnt do the best I had wished for. Tuesday, my jaw is hurting. I wake up around 4:00am and just cry because of the excruciating pain. And I am one that can handle pain quite well. Later in the day I hobble around on my crutches to and fro, finding no patience in my stuggle. Wednesday, my rough draft is due for my english paper, I feel useless, I only got started on it and dont have the eurning to do any more for what it is worth. The pain worsens in my jaw. Thursday, I can deal no more with the pain in my mouth and get into the campus nurse, she refers me to a few dentists. I end up calling around the area for anyone, anyone please, who has a space available for me. I feel bad asking Jenny for a ride to the dentist but she is the only one available. She is a god-send. I get in and get the dry socket filled with whatever bad smelling/tasting stuff, but it started to feel better. The tylanol and IB profin are still in large use. I am starting to feel a bit better though. Friday, I decide that I am officially sick of school and that this week has been the worst one yet in my college days. I skip my first class, geology. She was only going to talk about the grand canyon. I dont honestly care that much about the topic and Shana, in talkes me into going over to the caff for breakfast. She didnt have to try to hard. We end up spending over 30 minutes there joking around with Brett and John Spears. Later in the day I go to english and do an in class paper on abortion and women's rights. Finally, the week worth of school was over. I sighed and went and read some more of the book I just started a few days ago, The Time Traveler's Wife. The book is much better than I had thought it out to be. It captured me from the first page. I had finished To Kill A Mockingbird earlier in the week. To finish off my Friday I settled back and watched movies with my dear friend Jenny. We had quite a good time skipping game night at the ministery house. She can pick some good movies. Saturday, not quite finished but there wasnt much to it. I woke up around 11 and went in the canyon with shana, probably shouldnt have walked the way I did down to the river bank on my broken foot. But I did anyways, me and my strong will. Naughty. Then we went to Walmart to pick up some goods, saw a ton of people from our dorm. And then headed back to Humbert, did some reading for sociology, talked to Jon for a bit (poor kid, I had not much to say, but I was glad to hear from him), and just now I got back from watching Pride and Prejudice with Jenny and Shelli. Such a good movie. The guy is so cute. Anyways, now that the night is near over, I should withdraw to my bed and read a bit before I decided to say my goodnight for the evening.

Good day to you, and thank God the week is over. May the pain be gone with the week.

together

I was having some fun with photoshop... I like the way this looks.

crutchie

morning
it officially sucks to have crutches. The whole broken foot thing I can take, but walking around campus stinks with crutches. I decided I am finally building my abbs and arm muscles because of them. But still... Oh and its weird, a lot more teachers say hello to you when you have crutches. Society is just diff. when using them.
night
I have now decided that God gave me the whole car thing and the crutches because he wants to teach me a lesson. I guess he wants me to know how to rely on other people. I hate doing that. . .

library man

just a pic i took while bored in the library

through the night

the snow drifts across the road
hiding your vision of safety
darkness encompases the car
snow flakes shooting at you
like flying light speed through space
muscles tense in anxiousness
adding another sleepless night

So yesterday was my last day of break. I didnt do much, packed up, ate dinner with my fam, and then headed over to Jon's house in Erin's car Chester. Yeah Erin got a car, a 95 Honda Accord I do believe. I was so out of it last night. The medication really has been getting to my brain. I couldnt think straight or sit still for the life of me.

As we drove from Jon's house he kissed me and said maybe that would make it better. He is so cheesy, but I love it... We headed for the train station where we were going to meet Nick and Dema. Stations like that just have this crazy atmosphere and a certain smell. Kinda like all airports. Anyways, after Nick said goodbye to his girlfriend and Dema came off the train we headed off through the night back to school. I ended up sitting in the front with Jon and keeping him awake. I miss him already to tell the truth. Anyways until Mitchell we hung out in the front then he switched with Nick who then took the wheel and I attempted to fall asleep. The roads didnt get bad until a little bit past Chamberlain. Then the snow really hit. We were driving about 40 mph for quite a while. I couldnt sleep. I worry too much about that kinda stuff. My muscles were tensing and my but is ganna be soar tomorrow. It does make me hope there is no school tomorrow. I attempted to study for my sociology test after we left Wall. It didn't work though. That is the main reason I am hoping for no school tomorrow!!

Jon dropped me off at the ministery house around 8:30, I dont know if that was central of mountain time. I was so out of it. While there I had a few hours before Jenny was going to be there to pick me up so I decided to highlight some of the stuff I need to know for my test. Then I couldnt stay awake anymore and went upstairs and froze my butt off while sleeping. I woke up to Brad talking downstairs. So I headed down and there was Jenny and Brad. Jenny and I headed for lunch and then back to the dorms where we were locked out even though they were supposed to open at noon. We called quite a number of people on the list to help get us in. Finally after about 20-30 minutes Jodi came to the door and let us in. Good greif. Then off to the shower and bed I went. I didnt get up unitl around 5. It felt good...

The snow is still poaring down on the campus. I heard the roads are bad, school should be canceled!!!! I need some alone time, I'm not ready for Erin to get back. I dont feel like I got much of my alone time over break... Now I'm just listening to Children 18:3 and putting off studying. I suppose... (*sigh*)

In the End

Yesterday was a short one. I didnt wake up until 2:00 pm. I guess that is kinda sad of me to be sleeping away my spring break. It felt so good to sleep in that late, I hadnt gotten to bed until late the night before because I was hanging out with Jon, we went to Wendy's with Chris and his girl and then Segue and played tetris. That was fun. Chris is so funny, he was trying to make me smile and laugh cause it hurt me to do it because of my wisdom teeth removal. What a brat. But it was fun, I do have to admit.

Jon and I have hung out every day except the day I got my wisdom teeth out. It has been great. Yesterday we hung out again. We went to a Children 18:3 concert in Oak Grove at Chaos Coffee House in Abundant Life Church. I guess it was the second time at the coffee house that they have had a concert so they are just getting started. I loved it, there is just this feeling that flows over me when I go to concerts. Not an explainable feeling, but so great. Ben and Grace, Nathaniel's siblings, were there. I said hi to them, Ben did his walk in his chick jeans. That was funny. Grace wants to be exactly like Ben, that is kinda funny. Should be flattering though but anoying too I suppose.

Yesterday was my last full day here in the Soda before I leave back for school. The four car pile-up is leaving tonight around 10 or 11 from the train station in Minneapolis where we are meeting Dema. We are driving through the night and I should get back to Spearfish around 8 am. I should really study is what is going through my mind. Ick! The dorms dont open until noon so I'm ganna chill at the ministery house until Jenny picks me up. That girl is good to me.

By going back to school that means that I have to again say goodbye to Jon. At least this time I know that I am going to see him sooner, he said he will try to visit me before Easter. I think that I am going to visit him after Easter when I have my car again. I guess it should all go as planed unless something crazy comes up. I love the boy, ok man. He means the world to me.

Alright, time to finish getting my stuff together and get ready to go. I think that I'm just ganna chill at Jon's until its time to leave to get Dema. I have to figure out if I want to bring my new, really comfy, pillow with me in the car. Its large, but awesome...

the official Wednesday of break

So this morning I went in and got my wisdom teeth out. They are of no more in my mouth. Just to let you know, laughing gass is crazy. I felt so weird kinda dizzy. The rest of my day has been haning out at home sleeping and reading To Kill a Mockingbird.

Dad called home from church telling mom that Joe and Rachel had gotten in a car accident in Denver today. So Joe's car is totalled is what it sounded like and he doesnt have insurance from what I know. Mom just thanked God that they were all right. So now it is either they ride the bus back to the Twin Cities or Fly back to Minneapolis. I was told that there was an accident ahead of them and they hit an icy patch and hit the truck infront of them which made a nice large dent in the front of his Honda.

Crazy things happen. I just don't know.

I'm broken

so my mom took me to the doctors today and I got an x-ray on my foot that I told you about earlier. Yeah, it's broken. I have to wear a brace and use crutches for a few weeks. the doc says that break was in a hard healing spot.

So later tonight Jon and I are going to go see a movie. Erin might go with. Last night Jon and I just hung out at my house. It was good. It is nice to be able to spend time with my boyfriend. :) later...

First Saturday of Spring Break

The day started out great and just got crazier as it went on. I was so ready to leave the college and head home for SB when Jon messaged me and told me that he wasnt going to be in Spearfish until 3 or 4. My heart sank... Last night we arrived at my house around 2:30. We actually made great time. The car ride, I do have to say, was one of the strangest rides I have on this jouney back and forth from MN to SD. Not because of the people I was riding with, but because of my emotions and just how weird it was. I cant really explain to you how I was feeling. The best I can say was I was down, sad, wanting to cry, and wishing to be home/alone. I read a book about half the way. Then after it got dark, I gave up on that. I decided the next best thing to reading would be staring out the window into the great abyss of South Dakota and southern Minnesota. Jon got so many text messages from this chick back at college, which honestly made me feel even more jelous and made me question our relationship. Distance is one thing, but when you add all the other stupid human emotions into it, it gets bad.

One of the 3 boys that I was riding with took the wheel and decided to re-learn how to drive the stick shift. Instead of putting it into 1st gear he had kept putting it into 3rd. So really no progress was being made until, after I saw Jon the most worked up ever, the problem was figured out. Then it was all good. Jon and I sat in the back, which was a good thing (even though the drive was speeding and I was just waiting for him to get pulled over. there was a close call when we were closer to the cities). Him and I got talking about some prety deep issues. Kinda a weird time to talk about them, but at least they came out. I finally admitted to him what I had been thinking for the last forever, so it hasnt been that long, but it did need to come out. He promised me that he would try and call me every night and say goodnight to me. This is so that we would get more contact until we get married (bad way to put it but yeah). In turn he made me promise that I would tell him when I was feeling stuff like I was again. All in all, I hope the promises come through. Only time will tell.

Today I woke up early. Honestly I wish I could have slept another 4 or 5 hours. Anyways after I got up I went upstairs and had breakfast with the smiling Mya and the rest of my family, and Beccah. After breakfast my parents dropped me off with Jon and a few other guys and I was then headed off to MOA. We spent a few hours there. Not much really productive. I was prety out of it though. The only thing bought was a yo-yo by Jon who is now addicted to them because of my mom. After that long sprawl and some other busy body stuff in the middle there Faith invited my family to go out to dinner with them for Jon's birthday. I was a bit hesitant at first but after we all got to the Olive Garden and were seated the night ended up to go by not too bad. Actually, it was much better than I thought it would be. I think that Jon's parents kinda saw me in a diff. light at dinner, I was acting a bit more childish but hey, that happens.

Dinner was done late and Jon and I headed to my house to pick up my jacket. Then it was off to Forest Lake. I really like that park there. But now they have taken out all the old trees, done something to the edge of the lake and made the park just not as beautiful. I dont like it as much anymore. It makes me mad... anyways, sorry for that little spasm. Jon and I, like normal, sat in the car cause it was too cold in this fridged MN weather that gets into your bones to walk around or sit outside. So we sat in the car for a few hours, pleasured by eachothers presence. Almost every time a car drove by we checked to make sure it wasnt a cop. We have had our close calls just a few times. Right as we were questioning if we should leave the police pulls up behind us and we quickly turned on the car and drove out, knowing that that would be the smarter thing to do. I am sick of dealing with that. Him and I are not smoking, doing drugs, drinking, or having sex in his car. None of that is anything either of us would do alltogether.

Now it is time for bed so that I get at least a few hours of sleep before church tomorrow morning. I hope that I get to see Dena tomorrow and that it is a good day. A nap would be nice on a beautiful Sunday afternoon after reading the funnies.

bored in the library

The top pic is what my group and i made out of our duct tape thing we did at spring retreat. As you can see, its suspenders and a belt. The bottom pic is of me and Jill at Stanfords in Sheridan. Great times!

Many things happen in life. Good and bad. But either way, there are memories to hold them all. And Laughter in itself brings joy to others.