Thanksgiving

what i am thankfull for. as always, that i am alive and well, for my family, for school and a good place to live, and for sure Jon.

Today was a good day. not too much happening. just hung out around the house all day. got some of the stuff in my room organized, deciding what i want to bring with when i move out or things that could be gotten rid of and so on. mya helped me with it. she was by my side all day today. i thought it kinda crazy that she was actually that nice to me and liked me. i think she gave me the most hugs i have ever gotten from her today. so i will say, it was a good thanksgiving to be able to have a bonding time with my baby sister. with the other sister, barely saw her today. she went to a movie with bob and then when they came back he stood in my room and talked to me while erin just stood there like the third wheel. i felt bad, i didnt mean to take him from her like that, but it was nice to talk to him again. catch up a bit. he is a great guy and has such a giving heart.

anyways, i just got off the phone with jon sounded like his thanksgiving went well. i'm happy for him. i wish we could have been together, last year we were though and not with our families. i guess this year is the total opposite of last years. wow, just thought of that now, crazy bananas. so jon and i have been away from eachother now for 24 hours. i feel like it has been longer, i dont know how i got through last year and the year before being so far apart. i couldnt even put a number to how many times i thought of him today. i am so excited to marry this man, he means the world to me and more. only 38 days left! i was thinking about last year and my senior year of high school and it made me remember how much i looked forward to getting a call from jon or me calling him even getting a text message or email or mail at all was very exciting. i never thought, but always wished, that the two of us would be planing our wedding at the age of 20. it fills my heart with so much joy. i love every bit of him, his faults, his strengths, his smile, his walk, he is the most hansom man i have ever met. he touches my heart in a way that no other person could ever do. i love him, want to serve him, want to hold him, and want to grow old with him. he will always be in my heart. nothing could replace him. i am fully and joyfully in love.

I got sunshine, on a cloudy day!

three days of sunshine in a row! that is a record so far up here. I'm loving every bit of it. other than the sun there is lots of thing happening. still looking for a job and finally getting some place with the appartments, thank God. I have also now signed up for classes for next semester, its ganna be a boring gen ed. semester. taking sociology 273, english 101 (over again, dumb proff.), literature 222, chem 100, and psychology 101. yeah, i am going to have a lot of writing on my hands, but hopefully it will all turn out good. also by taking some of these classes it will save money because I wont have to take them at the art institute, which we will be paying $402 per credit. so that is about 11 thousand dollars saved, which is what i have prety much payed for one year of schooling that is already payed for here.

other than that, still counting down the days till the wedding it's 41 days and 5 hours. prety exciting. things are getting a little more down to the wire now. I'm going in for my fitting this Saturday for my dress, the girls have already gone in. and we have decided to wait on their shoes and pick them out once they get into town before the wedding, I pray to God that we will be able to find some good ones then, a little scary. Also, some people have still not replied saying if they are going to attend the wedding or not, which is kinda crazy, we need to know by this weekend cause that is when we have the meeting with jenna. but anyways, i should get my paper done that is due tomorrow. yuck!

getting stuff done

oh wow, lots of things to do. a few test this week, a few papers next week. some ending of the bigger wedding plans. just down to the nitty gritty like where we are going to live and how are we going to pay for it...

i have a few more things to do to get done for the art institute. like write a few explanations and stuff for loans and do the 2007/08 FAFSA saying i am going to be an independent student. i pray to God that that will give jon and I way more loans and hopefully lots of grants cause otherwise we are going to be broke and living on the streets. but i am extremely excited to move to denver. wow that is so crazy to say that i will not be in minnesota anymore. but then again it is crazy to say that i am in college for one, and second going to get married in 47 days! wowzers, yeah. and plus, i cant believe i went 11 hours from home last year to BHSU and now am living in the dreadfull wisconsin (still have the grudges against wisconsin, sorry, dont think they will ever be gone). ok so the grudges arent as bad as i make them sound. *sigh*

alright back to work here, i have to get focused...

crazy stuff going on!

so the other day i was with jon and we went into our friend jake's room. jake showed us a cd or dvd that he got from sony records and on it was a white powdery substance. he then decided to look up anthrax. he also took it to the police and the police told him later that they werent going to test it but they did have to destroy it just in case. jake's doc gave him meds for it just in case. so i think it is kinda crazy that the police dept. didnt even test to see what it was, even if it wasnt anthrax.

anyways, other than that, not too much is going on here. jon and i are still looking for jobs. its really stressing me out and i think him too. we need jobs and fast. otherwise we wont even be able to live after we get married, unless we want to rely on our parents for the rest of our lives. most people hiring are just seasonal which we cant work otherwise we would have had a job a long time ago. also, some of the people hiring are taking forever to hire, like the holiday down the road from campus. they could have had me a month ago, but no they just finally took the now hiring sign down and are going to get around to looking at the apps once they get time. its crazy stuff, and i am going to go crazy too!

another thing, im going back on the depression meds (seasonal depression). i hate to admit it but it is best for me. my moods have been up and down and i hate that i have no control over that. also i hate that i am putting jon through it too. i am so lucky to have a man like him. i love him lots and lots. hey on that subject 49 days left until we married and 186 days until the end of the school year! only 18 days left of class this semester! alright, now it is off to lunch...

something funny

why did the boy throw the butter out his window?



he wanted to see a butterfly


yeah i know, laffy taffy is great...

 

 

 

 

its going down!!

every day i am getting more and more excited about the future! 59 days 20 hours and approx 40 minutes until the wedding starts. wow. . . i remember back in the day when i never pictured myself finding the man i loved. and God has sent someone even better than i had ever imagined. my heart is so in love its hard to contain. trials have come and gone but through every one we have grown stronger and i love him more after every one. WOW! 59 days, come on... two month from yesterday!
all we have left to worry about is the smaller things and the flowers. hopefully the flowers and the cake decision will be taken care of within the next few weeks. oh yeah and we have the trial of music. i really have no idea what is ganna happen there.

school is going prety well. the band teacher is gone until next thursday which is great. i really have this thing against her. she is the worst conducter i have ever had. her grose teeth drive me crazy too. other than that, spanish hopefully will get better, at least a D, that is all I am aiming for. I just need to pass the class so that I dont have to add another 3 credits to next semester. I only have 8 credits left to get my AA degree. which if i really would have thought about it, i probably could have gotten it done this semester. oh well. then after my AA degree jon and i are on our way out to denver. i officially got accepted to the art institute of colorado. i am ganna go for photography. fulfiling my hearts dream/desire. I cant wait to be back by the mountains and so on. i wont lie, i will probably miss it here in minnesota, at least some of the things (not the mosquitoes though, thats for sure!) like corn fields, some of the farms, black soil. but i am ready to be near the mountains, the newness of it all. i am so ready to leave. when i get mad or scared i feel like i want to run away, i just want to leave the place i am at. to be somewhere that i cant be. thats not how i feel now but i just wanted to write that so i remember that later.

:)