atf this year!
Monday, February 28, 2005
oh how things never change
its interesting how you feel like things are so different yet they are still exactly the same.
today i called Diane back from farmstead and got an interview to work in dietary/prety much set up and set down and bring the food to the people at the tables in the dinning room. i think i got the job. i hope i did. she said they will pay me like $8.70 an hour which is a lot better than at holiday. i just say if it is God's will, i will get the job.
every day is getting closer to when we are leaving for China to pick up my little sister Mya. all of us here at this house are getting really anxious and excited for her to come into our family. we have our suit cases and lists of what we need, her room is in order, clothes are here and ready to go, and now we just need my little sister to be here.
after chillin out with my sister after school today i got a call from my friend jenny whom i used to go to school with at st. francis. i miss her so much. i keep thinking about calling her and some of my other friends from there but i always think they are going to be busy or whatever. anyways she called me and we talked a bit her daughter said, "hi carrie." she is now 2 years old. that is crazy. it was only a little while ago that i feel like i left there for meadow creek. but yet it feels like an eternity. jenny said they were talking about me the other day and about the olden days of us as freshmen and the younger years. so that made her want to call me i guess. i love when they tell me that they miss me. i love them a lot and sometimes its just nice to hear it from the other end. oh and she told me to call our friend jared. she told me we should actually get together sometime. that would rock.
anyways i did call jared. he is such a nice guy. well, i called his home and talked to his little brother and then i called his cell phone that i didnt know he had until today. anyways i guess he was at a choir trip meeting with his parents and the kids didnt really have to listen. they are going to hawaii this year. that is so awesome. us from the tiny private school that i go to are only going to colorado for band tour and not even taking a trip for choir this year. jared has gotten a bit more talkative troughout the years i notticed. a few years ago when i would talk to him he never said too much besides one word answers. we had a short but sweet conversation. its always nice to talk to old friends. he asked me to go to prom with him. yeah that is quite flattering. im ganna be on band tour though at that time when it is happenin on april 9th. it would be cool to go though and hang out together as friends and see how everyone else is doing. i very much so wish i could go. we shall see.
anyways. now im off to do whatever there is to do. or i should do, yeah right, like i would do what i should get done. later gator!
today i called Diane back from farmstead and got an interview to work in dietary/prety much set up and set down and bring the food to the people at the tables in the dinning room. i think i got the job. i hope i did. she said they will pay me like $8.70 an hour which is a lot better than at holiday. i just say if it is God's will, i will get the job.
every day is getting closer to when we are leaving for China to pick up my little sister Mya. all of us here at this house are getting really anxious and excited for her to come into our family. we have our suit cases and lists of what we need, her room is in order, clothes are here and ready to go, and now we just need my little sister to be here.
after chillin out with my sister after school today i got a call from my friend jenny whom i used to go to school with at st. francis. i miss her so much. i keep thinking about calling her and some of my other friends from there but i always think they are going to be busy or whatever. anyways she called me and we talked a bit her daughter said, "hi carrie." she is now 2 years old. that is crazy. it was only a little while ago that i feel like i left there for meadow creek. but yet it feels like an eternity. jenny said they were talking about me the other day and about the olden days of us as freshmen and the younger years. so that made her want to call me i guess. i love when they tell me that they miss me. i love them a lot and sometimes its just nice to hear it from the other end. oh and she told me to call our friend jared. she told me we should actually get together sometime. that would rock.
anyways i did call jared. he is such a nice guy. well, i called his home and talked to his little brother and then i called his cell phone that i didnt know he had until today. anyways i guess he was at a choir trip meeting with his parents and the kids didnt really have to listen. they are going to hawaii this year. that is so awesome. us from the tiny private school that i go to are only going to colorado for band tour and not even taking a trip for choir this year. jared has gotten a bit more talkative troughout the years i notticed. a few years ago when i would talk to him he never said too much besides one word answers. we had a short but sweet conversation. its always nice to talk to old friends. he asked me to go to prom with him. yeah that is quite flattering. im ganna be on band tour though at that time when it is happenin on april 9th. it would be cool to go though and hang out together as friends and see how everyone else is doing. i very much so wish i could go. we shall see.
anyways. now im off to do whatever there is to do. or i should do, yeah right, like i would do what i should get done. later gator!
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Reminisce
Sit and watch
The sun seeping down
Slowly the evening erodes away
Moonlight empties itself
Shining whole heartedly
Yawning delicately
The sun seeping down
Slowly the evening erodes away
Moonlight empties itself
Shining whole heartedly
Yawning delicately
Yellow heat invades night’s privacy
Thursday, February 24, 2005
competition days
today just as yesterday i went a competition with a part of my school. yesterday i went to the band competition. to be honest these really arent competitions they score you and tell you what you need to work on and how you are doing and so on.
so yeah yesterday i went to the band one. that was cool. i hung out with tia prety much the whole time except at lunch when i chilled with janelle and stephanie. they are all cool girls. tia and i talked about diff. things like she plays french horn and is in eighth grade so she is friends with my sister so we talked about that and just other odd things. like she thinks i should at least try one sport. i have thought about it but no its just not for me. she keeps pushing it though. we talked about her dad who is the band director.
for the competition we didnt do as well as we had last year. i believe that is because we are missing kids from last year a lot of the good players graduated and this year we gained some new kids so they are still learning they havent played as long as some of us who have at least eight years under our belts. but all in all it was good.
today was the choir competition. we did horrid. there are only 16 kids in out choir. four on each part. we did worse that we do at practice. i suppose for a small choir we didnt do to horrible but not what i had wanted. we are way too quiet and dont have ballance in parts. at least that is what i think.
because we were leaving earlier to go to the choir thing i had to eat an earlier lunch. i was going to go out to grab some food with Krystal but ended up going with aaron. that kid is crazy and insain that is all i can say. he is friends with nathaniel who used to go to meadow creek and now goes to st. franny where i met him. so aaron likes to talk about him for some reason. this kid said to me while we were in the car, "now dont tell anyone i took you out to get some food now. ok." the kid has a very odd sarcasm. we went to the deli first because he has something with delies. i guess he likes them a lot. whatever, that was all cool he played the guitar for me earlier and drew a very horrid picture of me. he had drawn like at least half my classes pics. all very bad like a young child but that would help you see just a glimpse of his personality.
on the way to the choir competition. i didnt ride on the bus. i rode with Krystal. that was cool i got to know her a bit more and just had a bonding time. we didnt get lost either even though the place was about an hour away. kinda near edina. anyways then after i got home i took a nap because i am lacking of my precious sleep lately. now i am off to work on my yearbook pages again. oh dear.
so yeah yesterday i went to the band one. that was cool. i hung out with tia prety much the whole time except at lunch when i chilled with janelle and stephanie. they are all cool girls. tia and i talked about diff. things like she plays french horn and is in eighth grade so she is friends with my sister so we talked about that and just other odd things. like she thinks i should at least try one sport. i have thought about it but no its just not for me. she keeps pushing it though. we talked about her dad who is the band director.
for the competition we didnt do as well as we had last year. i believe that is because we are missing kids from last year a lot of the good players graduated and this year we gained some new kids so they are still learning they havent played as long as some of us who have at least eight years under our belts. but all in all it was good.
today was the choir competition. we did horrid. there are only 16 kids in out choir. four on each part. we did worse that we do at practice. i suppose for a small choir we didnt do to horrible but not what i had wanted. we are way too quiet and dont have ballance in parts. at least that is what i think.
because we were leaving earlier to go to the choir thing i had to eat an earlier lunch. i was going to go out to grab some food with Krystal but ended up going with aaron. that kid is crazy and insain that is all i can say. he is friends with nathaniel who used to go to meadow creek and now goes to st. franny where i met him. so aaron likes to talk about him for some reason. this kid said to me while we were in the car, "now dont tell anyone i took you out to get some food now. ok." the kid has a very odd sarcasm. we went to the deli first because he has something with delies. i guess he likes them a lot. whatever, that was all cool he played the guitar for me earlier and drew a very horrid picture of me. he had drawn like at least half my classes pics. all very bad like a young child but that would help you see just a glimpse of his personality.
on the way to the choir competition. i didnt ride on the bus. i rode with Krystal. that was cool i got to know her a bit more and just had a bonding time. we didnt get lost either even though the place was about an hour away. kinda near edina. anyways then after i got home i took a nap because i am lacking of my precious sleep lately. now i am off to work on my yearbook pages again. oh dear.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
North Star
Fading shaddows
under gray moonlight
hidden deep within
figures move
straying out in the murky rays
ever to be disguised
unwanted light
uncovers dark faces
running shadow to shadow
deep within
the forest blankets
from severe pain
further from searching
braving the nights frigid air
fleeing into helpful arms
handing over life
until the time comes
racing to where the star leeds
operation misunderstanding
why God, why?
today was sucky. im not exactly too great of a mood. i just feel like being alone and just thinking. reconsidering life.
my mom and i got in a fight last night, which brought my dad in as the referee and also adding a little here and there. it all started because they asked me if i was going to night school this wednesday. i said no just cause. (i dont want to because i have too much of a load to add that on this week. i didnt tell them that though). then they said i should and i just said no. a few seconds later i said that oh no, i might turn out like joe and not graduate on time. i said it quite sarcastically.
so then later on after i had went down to my bedroom and was studying my mom came down all ticked off cause i said that and it was kinda the last straw.i understand that she is really stressed out cause of mya comming and what not. but here from my point of view, i shall share a bit. i fell like mya is kinda replacing me, i chose the wrong college (like they arent supporting me, mostly my mom), im just not hitting the mark, erin is the good kid and joe was the bad one so im just one back off wherever, either my job is good or getting too many hours or i should quit or i shouldnt, my grades are not good enough (look at erins she gets mostly a's), who i am is just not good enough in other words, time now is either spent on church or the adoption, and i dont know more stuff. i know its all not true, but sometimes that is just how i feel. emotion is a hard thing. i dont like when it overcomes you and then runs your life. i have tried so hard not to let it get me but last night it just all got out of its cage.
my dad came down to my room a bit later and we talked. that was good. i love my dad. he means a lot to me. i felt bad that erin had been asleep in the room next to me though. poor kid. i dont want her to be the middle man like i was with all that junk with joe. i love my siblings very much so.
so i have learned lately that i am one to keep a lot of what i think, emotions, choices, and opinions too myself. i decided that even if i want someone to know me, like the people at school. it is very hard for me just do it. i feel lately, and i know i shouldnt, that im just not worth it or not right, orjust not hitting the mark.
all this put together has made me very opinionated. also judging, just like i dont want others to be, im such a hypocrit.
sometimes i just wish that i could go back to the days when i didnt care. i was open to prety much anything. but i cant so i will try to live with what i have and not become who i dont want to be.
anyways my mom did appologize and i do totally understand, im glad she was able to get it all out and i still feel like it is still all in me but i dont have anything against her, she is human and so am i. i love her very much, she is my mother.
i could keep going. there is a lot on my mind. i just feel like ive shared too much already. and i just thought i would write it all down for future reference to how i felt and so on. kinda a reminder. because of this dont think that my family is bad or that i dont love them cause i do no matter what. oh and that is why it is operation misunderstanding. because sometimes life seems like an operations that is or can be quite misunderstood. i feel like my life is like that. hope that kinda made sence.
today was sucky. im not exactly too great of a mood. i just feel like being alone and just thinking. reconsidering life.
my mom and i got in a fight last night, which brought my dad in as the referee and also adding a little here and there. it all started because they asked me if i was going to night school this wednesday. i said no just cause. (i dont want to because i have too much of a load to add that on this week. i didnt tell them that though). then they said i should and i just said no. a few seconds later i said that oh no, i might turn out like joe and not graduate on time. i said it quite sarcastically.
so then later on after i had went down to my bedroom and was studying my mom came down all ticked off cause i said that and it was kinda the last straw.i understand that she is really stressed out cause of mya comming and what not. but here from my point of view, i shall share a bit. i fell like mya is kinda replacing me, i chose the wrong college (like they arent supporting me, mostly my mom), im just not hitting the mark, erin is the good kid and joe was the bad one so im just one back off wherever, either my job is good or getting too many hours or i should quit or i shouldnt, my grades are not good enough (look at erins she gets mostly a's), who i am is just not good enough in other words, time now is either spent on church or the adoption, and i dont know more stuff. i know its all not true, but sometimes that is just how i feel. emotion is a hard thing. i dont like when it overcomes you and then runs your life. i have tried so hard not to let it get me but last night it just all got out of its cage.
my dad came down to my room a bit later and we talked. that was good. i love my dad. he means a lot to me. i felt bad that erin had been asleep in the room next to me though. poor kid. i dont want her to be the middle man like i was with all that junk with joe. i love my siblings very much so.
so i have learned lately that i am one to keep a lot of what i think, emotions, choices, and opinions too myself. i decided that even if i want someone to know me, like the people at school. it is very hard for me just do it. i feel lately, and i know i shouldnt, that im just not worth it or not right, orjust not hitting the mark.
all this put together has made me very opinionated. also judging, just like i dont want others to be, im such a hypocrit.
sometimes i just wish that i could go back to the days when i didnt care. i was open to prety much anything. but i cant so i will try to live with what i have and not become who i dont want to be.
anyways my mom did appologize and i do totally understand, im glad she was able to get it all out and i still feel like it is still all in me but i dont have anything against her, she is human and so am i. i love her very much, she is my mother.
i could keep going. there is a lot on my mind. i just feel like ive shared too much already. and i just thought i would write it all down for future reference to how i felt and so on. kinda a reminder. because of this dont think that my family is bad or that i dont love them cause i do no matter what. oh and that is why it is operation misunderstanding. because sometimes life seems like an operations that is or can be quite misunderstood. i feel like my life is like that. hope that kinda made sence.
Monday, February 21, 2005
presidents day
oh man was it good that there wasnt school today. i am so happy about that!
i stayed up to around 3 talking to jon on the phone. that was good as always. i really wish that we could hang out in person though. i miss him.
because i had stayed up so late i slept until 1:30. well, i was woken up a few times by different loud noises in the house. for example herman meowing at my door or the phone ringing.
after i got up i sat and watched these makeover shows with my mom and sister. i dont know why i even sat down in the first place. i dont evern honestly like those shows. anyways i sat around for a few hours and then went off to work at 4.
work wasnt bad at all. the only thing about it tonight was that i felt like i wasnt accomplishing anything that i was just working and not getting anything done.
oh my goodness while i was outside earlier this evening i looked up in the sky and you could see the moon surrounded by this briliant color of blue. it was so beautiful. then when i turned my head to look the opposite direction i saw the sunset sliding under its blanket of trees. yeah it totally pays off when you do floor work so you can be outside at least part of the night.
alright well im sure there is more i could say but i should get off of my computer and go study for a test tomarrow. i have some other homework too. shoot for the stars. later dude.
i stayed up to around 3 talking to jon on the phone. that was good as always. i really wish that we could hang out in person though. i miss him.
because i had stayed up so late i slept until 1:30. well, i was woken up a few times by different loud noises in the house. for example herman meowing at my door or the phone ringing.
after i got up i sat and watched these makeover shows with my mom and sister. i dont know why i even sat down in the first place. i dont evern honestly like those shows. anyways i sat around for a few hours and then went off to work at 4.
work wasnt bad at all. the only thing about it tonight was that i felt like i wasnt accomplishing anything that i was just working and not getting anything done.
oh my goodness while i was outside earlier this evening i looked up in the sky and you could see the moon surrounded by this briliant color of blue. it was so beautiful. then when i turned my head to look the opposite direction i saw the sunset sliding under its blanket of trees. yeah it totally pays off when you do floor work so you can be outside at least part of the night.
alright well im sure there is more i could say but i should get off of my computer and go study for a test tomarrow. i have some other homework too. shoot for the stars. later dude.
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Friday, February 18, 2005
Buddy Holly
ok i went to half priced books a little while ago and i was lookin at some of the records they sell there. i was in praticular lookin for some jazz vinals. it was about 15 minutes before the store was going to close and i saw this kid, well really some guy in his 20s, i guess he worked there. anyways he had thick black plastic framed glasses and the same kinda facial look and body build of Buddy Holly. that was prety sweet. i thought it was cool, he was wearing all star shoes and i guess his section in the store was the jazz section. it made me laugh a little. after there i just drove around. do you ever just feel like driving or want to drive until the world stops? ok so im a little crazy, whatever.
thank God it's friday
holy cow. i am so happy it is friday. today was awesomly ok. mr. r wasnt here today so we had a study hall during 4th hour/band. i got some of the body copy done for yearbook which is good. i have to get most of that done this weekend so that i dont have to stay up late after work this coming week. get the stress load off.
oh hey i stopped and talked to mrs. fast after school so that i could pick up my vocab that i turned in late. she talked to me a little and then she got all excited cause she remembered something that she had to show me. i guess she had been talking to a lady that she knows about motercycling (cause she likes to do that and she is 65 or something). the lady had told her about this motercylcle ride called the Ride For Kids and it is to raise money for brain tumor research. so she gave me a business card with the ladies number and info on it. she said she couldnt give her my number because that isnt legal. i just found it kinda funny. my dad and i rode in the Ride For Kids last summer. i was given a shirt that said im a star. it was the shirt they gave all the kids that had gone through a brain tumor. i remember during the ride which was a little over an hour my but was numb. then after that we got a free lunch and then they brought up all the kids to talk to on this stage thing. i was too afraid to go up. i didnt want to talk about my surgery and stuff. some of the other survivors you could tell by their face or certain things about them that they had gone through it and God has blessed me with no real great affect like that. it was cool that i could talk to mrs. fast about it. she is one of my favorite teachers.
then after talking to mrs. fast i went upstairs to get the bass clarinet and then came back around and looked for erin and molly. i went over to mrs. happ's room and looked and there erin was laying on this thingy majic (how very technical of me). then nathaniel came around the corner right as we were trying to think where molly had gone. so we hung out with nathaniel for a while jokin around catching up on things missed throughout the ages. on his awesome hat he had this really cool rose that he had made out of colored duct tape. it was prety sweet. then we talked some more. molly came around. we all had some good laughs. then his brother ben came around and talked him into leaving the retched building we call our school. yep that brings me up till now.
oh yes when i got home from school i had mail.oh me oh my. i got a letter from University of Minnesota Duluth finally. my whole family was in the kitchen (except joe cause yeah he doesnt live here) anyways. i looked at my dad and told him that i wasnt going to get accepted and that i had prayed that if it wasnt God's will for me to go there then he wouldnt allow them to accept me. while saying this i thought of how if i was accepted would this make me question if i should go to BHSU. then i thought, no i shouldnt that is where i am planing on going and that is where i actually want to go so why should i question myself. anyways to the point i opened the letter and. . . umm. . . ye. . . no i didnt get accepted. that is good though i dont have to question myself and i know its God's will for me to go to BHSU. cool. rock on!
oh hey i stopped and talked to mrs. fast after school so that i could pick up my vocab that i turned in late. she talked to me a little and then she got all excited cause she remembered something that she had to show me. i guess she had been talking to a lady that she knows about motercycling (cause she likes to do that and she is 65 or something). the lady had told her about this motercylcle ride called the Ride For Kids and it is to raise money for brain tumor research. so she gave me a business card with the ladies number and info on it. she said she couldnt give her my number because that isnt legal. i just found it kinda funny. my dad and i rode in the Ride For Kids last summer. i was given a shirt that said im a star. it was the shirt they gave all the kids that had gone through a brain tumor. i remember during the ride which was a little over an hour my but was numb. then after that we got a free lunch and then they brought up all the kids to talk to on this stage thing. i was too afraid to go up. i didnt want to talk about my surgery and stuff. some of the other survivors you could tell by their face or certain things about them that they had gone through it and God has blessed me with no real great affect like that. it was cool that i could talk to mrs. fast about it. she is one of my favorite teachers.
then after talking to mrs. fast i went upstairs to get the bass clarinet and then came back around and looked for erin and molly. i went over to mrs. happ's room and looked and there erin was laying on this thingy majic (how very technical of me). then nathaniel came around the corner right as we were trying to think where molly had gone. so we hung out with nathaniel for a while jokin around catching up on things missed throughout the ages. on his awesome hat he had this really cool rose that he had made out of colored duct tape. it was prety sweet. then we talked some more. molly came around. we all had some good laughs. then his brother ben came around and talked him into leaving the retched building we call our school. yep that brings me up till now.
oh yes when i got home from school i had mail.oh me oh my. i got a letter from University of Minnesota Duluth finally. my whole family was in the kitchen (except joe cause yeah he doesnt live here) anyways. i looked at my dad and told him that i wasnt going to get accepted and that i had prayed that if it wasnt God's will for me to go there then he wouldnt allow them to accept me. while saying this i thought of how if i was accepted would this make me question if i should go to BHSU. then i thought, no i shouldnt that is where i am planing on going and that is where i actually want to go so why should i question myself. anyways to the point i opened the letter and. . . umm. . . ye. . . no i didnt get accepted. that is good though i dont have to question myself and i know its God's will for me to go to BHSU. cool. rock on!
Thursday, February 17, 2005
due date
another due date comming up here. getting closer every day for yearbook. oh boy the stress is comming on. im hoping that i can get my pages done here prety soon. i just finished the body copy for the volunteer/community service page. i probably will have to change it a bit but i think it should pass the "Happ approval" test.
this week has been crazy and i am looking at next week and thinking it will be just as bad. this was the homework frenzy week. there is some stuff that i have turned in late which isnt cool but i will try and get some extra credit to make it up. there are some tests next week in two or three of my classes. i work monday, tuesday, and friday 4-10 and then have band competition wednesday and then choir competition thursday. this weekend i work both days. wow. the dedline for our pages in yearbook is thursday. the pages have to be sent out friday afternoon. oh me oh my. we are finishing up the good earth so i have over 100 pages to read this weekend. i could go on and on but im not going to. i feel bad that you have even read this far.
oh i hope i can get to bed early today. doesnt look like i will.
on the bright side my grandparents are comming into town on saturday. my aunt is comming with. my other aunt came over a few days ago.
we are getting closer and closer to getting mya and band tour and spring break and senior trip, and graduation, YEAH! well i better go get some more of the homework done. sorry for complaining. just felt good to tell it to someone. later, hope you can sit back and relax.
this week has been crazy and i am looking at next week and thinking it will be just as bad. this was the homework frenzy week. there is some stuff that i have turned in late which isnt cool but i will try and get some extra credit to make it up. there are some tests next week in two or three of my classes. i work monday, tuesday, and friday 4-10 and then have band competition wednesday and then choir competition thursday. this weekend i work both days. wow. the dedline for our pages in yearbook is thursday. the pages have to be sent out friday afternoon. oh me oh my. we are finishing up the good earth so i have over 100 pages to read this weekend. i could go on and on but im not going to. i feel bad that you have even read this far.
oh i hope i can get to bed early today. doesnt look like i will.
on the bright side my grandparents are comming into town on saturday. my aunt is comming with. my other aunt came over a few days ago.
we are getting closer and closer to getting mya and band tour and spring break and senior trip, and graduation, YEAH! well i better go get some more of the homework done. sorry for complaining. just felt good to tell it to someone. later, hope you can sit back and relax.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Monday, February 14, 2005
valentines day
yep yep yep. its valentines day. everyone is in a hype about it. today was quite cool not too much going on. i feel a little stressed cause of all the homework and work and just stuff going on in the next few week or i could say months too. anyways so i didnt get to sending what i got jon on time. im such a bad kid. i hope he likes it though. for sure.
tonight we had the valentines day banquet/dinner. the jazz band played a butt load of songs for a group of people while they were eating. this all took place in the chapel at school. before we went on stage i prayed that God would help me out on the fingerings and keep my mind in order. i was losin it. there are some songs that i had been doing horrid on. God blessed me and allowed me to do ok on them. well at least better than normal. now i have to go read around 100 pages of the good earth for english. that is crazy. i dont know how im going to do that. maybe i wont mrs. fast will understand. well off i go to do the list of homework. enjoy the day to celebrate love.
tonight we had the valentines day banquet/dinner. the jazz band played a butt load of songs for a group of people while they were eating. this all took place in the chapel at school. before we went on stage i prayed that God would help me out on the fingerings and keep my mind in order. i was losin it. there are some songs that i had been doing horrid on. God blessed me and allowed me to do ok on them. well at least better than normal. now i have to go read around 100 pages of the good earth for english. that is crazy. i dont know how im going to do that. maybe i wont mrs. fast will understand. well off i go to do the list of homework. enjoy the day to celebrate love.
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Aquire the Fire
alrighty, this weekend was the big shabang of Aquire the Fire which is a youth conference that i have gone to for at least the last 6 years. This year the title was keep it real. This year was good, i would have to say my first time to ATF was the best of them all but still they all have something i get out of it and then something i dont like. this year was the first that my good ol' Jon didnt come with me. it was kinda weird not to have him there with me i am so used to that now. i lived though didnt i?
my mom, my sister and her 3 friends and i met us with some of the kids from the land of cheese at the hotel on friday afternoon. we checked in and then they went swimming and i sat in the pool area and read a book. there is kid from wisc. and his name is joel. because i had no one to hang out with and i thought i would be nice i started talking to him (he was kinda the loner of the group). he is a freshmen. very immature. funny and clingy. nice guy and all. he started to cling to my he would grab my hood to make sure he didnt get lost or my arm and wouldnt let go. ok i do have a comfort zone. he was in other words flurting with me and some of the other girls, like my sister and her friends. no, i didnt flurt back. actually i tried to make it quite obvious that i dont flurt. im not going to date someone and then ditch him for some other guy. im not a player (inside joke). i was nice to joel and tried to make him feel involved and so on.
oh during the middle session i fell asleep. i am so bad. i must be getting old or something, i need my sleep. then during KJ-52 and Kutless i fell asleep laying down on the chairs. its kinda hard to exlplain how i layed down. joel tried to wake me up a few too many times. he blew bubbles in my face and stuff. then this one kid stepped on my stomach so that he could get to the chairs on the next step. i dont know if he did it on purpose or what but that wasnt cool. dena then came and sat on my stomach. i was trying to be all nice and stuff. but that really hurt. i couldnt breath too well. i just gave up on sleeping after that. well anyways, i enjoyed the weekend. i liked being a chaperone that was cool and it was really nice weather out for a weekend like this.
umm.. . oh we walked around minneapolas during our lunch break that was a blast. very beautiful. out of the normal stretch of carrie's life. later, its off to bed for me
my mom, my sister and her 3 friends and i met us with some of the kids from the land of cheese at the hotel on friday afternoon. we checked in and then they went swimming and i sat in the pool area and read a book. there is kid from wisc. and his name is joel. because i had no one to hang out with and i thought i would be nice i started talking to him (he was kinda the loner of the group). he is a freshmen. very immature. funny and clingy. nice guy and all. he started to cling to my he would grab my hood to make sure he didnt get lost or my arm and wouldnt let go. ok i do have a comfort zone. he was in other words flurting with me and some of the other girls, like my sister and her friends. no, i didnt flurt back. actually i tried to make it quite obvious that i dont flurt. im not going to date someone and then ditch him for some other guy. im not a player (inside joke). i was nice to joel and tried to make him feel involved and so on.
oh during the middle session i fell asleep. i am so bad. i must be getting old or something, i need my sleep. then during KJ-52 and Kutless i fell asleep laying down on the chairs. its kinda hard to exlplain how i layed down. joel tried to wake me up a few too many times. he blew bubbles in my face and stuff. then this one kid stepped on my stomach so that he could get to the chairs on the next step. i dont know if he did it on purpose or what but that wasnt cool. dena then came and sat on my stomach. i was trying to be all nice and stuff. but that really hurt. i couldnt breath too well. i just gave up on sleeping after that. well anyways, i enjoyed the weekend. i liked being a chaperone that was cool and it was really nice weather out for a weekend like this.
umm.. . oh we walked around minneapolas during our lunch break that was a blast. very beautiful. out of the normal stretch of carrie's life. later, its off to bed for me
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
grrr..... oh my gosh
ok so my parents got after me today about night school. they said i need to go cause once we go to china and then i go on band tour time is going to go very quickly and then i will be standing infront of the worship center just walking across the stage with the others and not getting my deploma. ahhh why dont they do the stupid waste of time packets for me. waste one of their wednesday nights sitting in the classroom at alternative learning center. stupid.
i have to take a class somehow to get my .25 of an english credit cause they do it really stupid at meadow creek. i did that its done, its over. now i am working on my history credit which i need to get .5 of it. because i switched schools they require diff. things so that is why it got messed up and i didnt know about that until the beginning of this year. at st. franny you only need 2 history credits so my freshmen year i got .5 in civics. but here at mc i need 4 stinkin history credits. ahhh, so stupid.
ok thanks for listenin to that. just had to complain a little.
so anyways. today wasnt too bad i sat in the back in chapel and listened with my eyes closed. yes i did doze off a bit but i couldn see the pastor anyways and i could tell you every detail of the rest of the chapel so why not close my eyes. it felt good. in english i got 100% on the quiz. it wasnt too hard. im likin reading the good earth. so it makes the quizes easier. i fell asleep in that class after the quiz when she was just reviewing the chapters we had just read.
ok in band today all the places in the songs where i normally get it right on were the places i totally screwed up. that wasnt cool at all. whatever.
later gator
i have to take a class somehow to get my .25 of an english credit cause they do it really stupid at meadow creek. i did that its done, its over. now i am working on my history credit which i need to get .5 of it. because i switched schools they require diff. things so that is why it got messed up and i didnt know about that until the beginning of this year. at st. franny you only need 2 history credits so my freshmen year i got .5 in civics. but here at mc i need 4 stinkin history credits. ahhh, so stupid.
ok thanks for listenin to that. just had to complain a little.
so anyways. today wasnt too bad i sat in the back in chapel and listened with my eyes closed. yes i did doze off a bit but i couldn see the pastor anyways and i could tell you every detail of the rest of the chapel so why not close my eyes. it felt good. in english i got 100% on the quiz. it wasnt too hard. im likin reading the good earth. so it makes the quizes easier. i fell asleep in that class after the quiz when she was just reviewing the chapters we had just read.
ok in band today all the places in the songs where i normally get it right on were the places i totally screwed up. that wasnt cool at all. whatever.
later gator
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
the sun also rises
ok, not much to say. yesterday at work the sunset was very beautiful. when i was working outside the clouds were a little ways from the horizon and the sun was setting right between the clouds and the ground. it was cool. it made my heart smile. :)
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Friday, February 04, 2005
Hey, what a day.
today at school was kinda a sad day depending on who you were aroud. one of the kids from the MC-RC (meadow creek, rivers christian) wrestiling teams sister was in a car accident yesterday. she was hit by a semi and was put in the hospital on life support. they took the life support off this morning and she did good for a bit but then passed away earlier today. many people were struggling to do their school work and had rings of red around their eyes from tears. if you could pray for that family and the friends, that would be great.
besides that, the day was great. classes went by prety fast and the weather was so nice. it was like 51 degrees today. i had to drive with my windows open cause it was so nice. i passed the memory verse for the week which is cool. the verse was very short though. after school i worked out with my friend jess in the weightroom for about an hour before her friend andy came and picked her up. that was fun.
later in this fine evening i went to youth group. its just not the same anymore. there are so many younger kids now and really no one my age. but i guess i enjoyed it anyways. alright im off to go read and then hit the sack. enjoy this fine evening. goodnight
today at school was kinda a sad day depending on who you were aroud. one of the kids from the MC-RC (meadow creek, rivers christian) wrestiling teams sister was in a car accident yesterday. she was hit by a semi and was put in the hospital on life support. they took the life support off this morning and she did good for a bit but then passed away earlier today. many people were struggling to do their school work and had rings of red around their eyes from tears. if you could pray for that family and the friends, that would be great.
besides that, the day was great. classes went by prety fast and the weather was so nice. it was like 51 degrees today. i had to drive with my windows open cause it was so nice. i passed the memory verse for the week which is cool. the verse was very short though. after school i worked out with my friend jess in the weightroom for about an hour before her friend andy came and picked her up. that was fun.
later in this fine evening i went to youth group. its just not the same anymore. there are so many younger kids now and really no one my age. but i guess i enjoyed it anyways. alright im off to go read and then hit the sack. enjoy this fine evening. goodnight
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Farmstead
hello, oh what a beautiful day it was today. the temperature was up to about 50 degrees and the sun was shining down on the slushy streets.
School like normal wasnt too bad. i started choir at the begining of this week. yeah im a bad singer. yesterday i stayed after with mrs. olson and practiced in her office just the two of us. ok i might be able to stay on tune but boy i dont sound too good other wise.
i havent been feeling too good the past week. i dont have a temp. cause i never do get one. but i do have a never ending headache. and so on. nothing too interesting to talk about there.
after school i sat around and finished my questions for the good earth. that is actually a good book. i didnt know if it would be. you see some of the other books we read in english class are kinda boring like last year when we read the scarlet letter. it wasnt a horrid book, just not one i would read on my own decision.
anyways i went over to farmstead and because it was so nice out many of the residents were sitting outside, step in the water. that was funny. there ended up to be just 4 of us including me playing uno today. i was fine with that, i enjoyed it anyways. it was elmer, arny, and jenn. elmer and arny are the two stable commers. i didnt do too bad, i won a few times. jenn won the most though. she is one of the tuffer people. she always forgets how to play and i have to reexplain it to her every week but i still enjoy that she plays with us.
afterwards i sat in the activity room with elmer and talked to him for a bit. he's like, "so i see you're the volunteer of the month." and he went on from there. he said that he admires me because i dont act like other girls my age giggling and so on. also he said that he thinks its good how much i love my family and how we are together in God. He told me being a teacher, preacher, or nurse is the best. He said its good that i want to be a nurse and work in a place like farmstead. he told me he likes me because i can relate to them and that if it is a serious conversation or just jokin around i can stay in it. he told me that am going to be a great nurse. for a man of his stature and just being elmer, a 94 year old man to tell me he admires me is a great compliment. there are certain people that God sends into your life and i believe that elmer is one of them. he's such an encouragement to me. im going to miss volunteering very much when i go off to college. i dont think i would ever wish that i didnt volunteer. by doing it i reached one of my goals in life and God has blessed me for serving other people.
School like normal wasnt too bad. i started choir at the begining of this week. yeah im a bad singer. yesterday i stayed after with mrs. olson and practiced in her office just the two of us. ok i might be able to stay on tune but boy i dont sound too good other wise.
i havent been feeling too good the past week. i dont have a temp. cause i never do get one. but i do have a never ending headache. and so on. nothing too interesting to talk about there.
after school i sat around and finished my questions for the good earth. that is actually a good book. i didnt know if it would be. you see some of the other books we read in english class are kinda boring like last year when we read the scarlet letter. it wasnt a horrid book, just not one i would read on my own decision.
anyways i went over to farmstead and because it was so nice out many of the residents were sitting outside, step in the water. that was funny. there ended up to be just 4 of us including me playing uno today. i was fine with that, i enjoyed it anyways. it was elmer, arny, and jenn. elmer and arny are the two stable commers. i didnt do too bad, i won a few times. jenn won the most though. she is one of the tuffer people. she always forgets how to play and i have to reexplain it to her every week but i still enjoy that she plays with us.
afterwards i sat in the activity room with elmer and talked to him for a bit. he's like, "so i see you're the volunteer of the month." and he went on from there. he said that he admires me because i dont act like other girls my age giggling and so on. also he said that he thinks its good how much i love my family and how we are together in God. He told me being a teacher, preacher, or nurse is the best. He said its good that i want to be a nurse and work in a place like farmstead. he told me he likes me because i can relate to them and that if it is a serious conversation or just jokin around i can stay in it. he told me that am going to be a great nurse. for a man of his stature and just being elmer, a 94 year old man to tell me he admires me is a great compliment. there are certain people that God sends into your life and i believe that elmer is one of them. he's such an encouragement to me. im going to miss volunteering very much when i go off to college. i dont think i would ever wish that i didnt volunteer. by doing it i reached one of my goals in life and God has blessed me for serving other people.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
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