why not you?

this sucks. i want everyone to understand how i feel. gosh why me? why did i have to have the tumor? why do i have to go through all this crap? i feel like no one understands.
i have my liceance taken away once becuase of my first sesure and that sucked and then i had the surgery. no it has been over three years and im ganna go off the sesure meds. that means i get my liceance taken away for six fricken months. and i might have six more weeks. dude im crying. that sucks. God. i know it all could have been worse yeah whatever. but whoever says that still hasnt had to go through and could never understand what i did. have someone take away your freedom! i feel like i am being tied down. as if im held back. like there is a glass window infront of me and i can see what is out there but there is no way that i can get through that glass. as if i have to be like a little kid looking out the window or a dog that can see an animal outside but has no one to let them out. oh God.
yeah ok whatever you say. "not a big deal." whatever. why not you?